My Fitbit stats show that I had an awful night’s sleep, I’ve struggled to stay awake all day.
C had a meeting a good 4 hour drive away this morning, so I opted to take the bus. Apart from the smelly guy sat opposite me, it was really enjoyable. Ears plugged into Issac Gracie and the morning sun kissing my face. It was a short walk from the bus stop to my office, which meant I was able to hit my Fitbit step goal.
Work was same old, I kept my head down for most of it and did what I could. Finished on time and was greeted by C waiting for me in the carpark.
Drove home, had dinner and crawled into bed. I think I’ll be asleep in 5… 4…. 3….. Zzzzz
So this is it, the very last time I say I’ll start a ‘New Me’ tomorrow. Tomorrow IS the New Me!
No longer will I be chauffeured to and from work. I have bought my weekly bus pass, my Fitbit Versa will be fully charged, primed and ready for the week ahead. I have made plans for one of my girlfriend’s to attend our local ParkRun this coming Saturday (with our kids in tow) and even though we may only be able to walk it, we are still doing something, right?
I’m spending today working on a food menu for the week and plan to do my Ocado shop shortly. I’m also planning on hitting bed by 10.30pm – Lights out and waking up at 6am for a 30min workout and breakfast with a view of hitting the gym 5 times a week.
I’m determined to do this!
C decided he would join me on my walk. Let’s just say I didn’t get everything out of the walk that I was hoping to get.
Still, I guess it’s a step in the right direction.
I’m scared right now to step on our Fitbit Aria scales, the dimpled legs and bottom I see when I look in the mirror make me almost sick to my stomach. It’s not cool. I honestly can’t remember the last time I looked in the mirror and felt happy with myself. My mental headspace is not a good place right now and I need to be proactive and do something about it.
I’ve been awake about 45mins and I’ve done the usual, make a brew and watch Sunday Brunch. I’m toying with the idea of either heading to the gym to walk on the treadmill, or head to the beach for a power walk. My relationship with C at the moment is a little strained and I know he’ll be disappointed that I’m choosing to go without him, but I think I need the time to myself. To powerwalk and think about the changes I need to make for myself and in turn our relationship.
How can people want to stay indoors when the outside looks so beautiful?