You know that feeling you get in the pit of your stomach? That Monday feeling? Well it’s returned. I’m currently lying in bed after having a few days off really hating the idea of heading into the office tomorrow.
On a positive, I’ve been doing some research into my business idea this weekend and even started to put a little bit of money away to buy tools. I’ve invested a little bit of my salary this month and with the help of people in Facebook groups, online videos and research I’ve put together a wish list of the basics I need to kick-start my business project. It might take me a few months to get everything from the list (it is quite extensive) but I should be able to start practising in a few weeks. All baby steps to do something I love, rather than continue to be treated like shit.
I shall keep you updated on progress and give you a sneak peek into my purchases when they arrive.
For now though I must try and remain as positive as I can.
This was the weekend of romance, of making plans, of being together. This was the weekend our daughter went away with school and we got some quality time as a couple.
Oh how wrong was I.
We’ve not left the house since Thursday night. We’ve watched TV and hardly spoken.
Why is it that if I don’t make arrangements to do something or book to go away somewhere we don’t do anything? Is it wrong of me to expect him to organise something every once in a while?
It’s his birthday next month and I’m seriously considering selling the Bears Den tickets I’ve bought him as a surprise.
So this is it, the very last time I say I’ll start a ‘New Me’ tomorrow. Tomorrow IS the New Me!
No longer will I be chauffeured to and from work. I have bought my weekly bus pass, my Fitbit Versa will be fully charged, primed and ready for the week ahead. I have made plans for one of my girlfriend’s to attend our local ParkRun this coming Saturday (with our kids in tow) and even though we may only be able to walk it, we are still doing something, right?
I’m spending today working on a food menu for the week and plan to do my Ocado shop shortly. I’m also planning on hitting bed by 10.30pm – Lights out and waking up at 6am for a 30min workout and breakfast with a view of hitting the gym 5 times a week.
I’m determined to do this!
Today I woke with a raging migraine so I called in sick and layed in bed until 8am. Work is really getting me down at the minute so once the migraine died down a little I took to Google and Pinterest to search for some inspiration to start up my own business and do things my way for a change. I’ve got a good few ideas, but need to map it all out with budgets to see if they’ll be viable routes to take. I’m not going to tell C yet as I’m thinking I’ll just put together a plan and perhaps get something going on Kickstarter and see where it takes me. My goal is to be doings things for myself come January, but we’ll see!
Back to the hum drum 9-5 tomorrow ☹️