You know that feeling you get in the pit of your stomach? That Monday feeling? Well it’s returned. I’m currently lying in bed after having a few days off really hating the idea of heading into the office tomorrow.
On a positive, I’ve been doing some research into my business idea this weekend and even started to put a little bit of money away to buy tools. I’ve invested a little bit of my salary this month and with the help of people in Facebook groups, online videos and research I’ve put together a wish list of the basics I need to kick-start my business project. It might take me a few months to get everything from the list (it is quite extensive) but I should be able to start practising in a few weeks. All baby steps to do something I love, rather than continue to be treated like shit.
I shall keep you updated on progress and give you a sneak peek into my purchases when they arrive.
For now though I must try and remain as positive as I can.
In my life I’ve never once asked for help. My dysfunctional, non-existing family are the reason I am the person I am today. A recluse. I don’t have friends, only acquaintances and to people on the outside I must come across like I have my shit together, but in reality I don’t. I need help. I need to cut strings, move on, grow up and make some massive life changes. I need to be positive. I need to spread happiness.
With that in mind, I’m going to be really cheeky and ask you lot – my followers, my virtual friends for a little bit of help by buying me a virtual brew (or coffee) $4 is all I ask. I plan to use my brew fund to make some positive changes to my life, starting today.
So what’s in it for you, I hear you ask….
Buy me one brew ($4) and I will send you a little bit of happiness in a bottle.
Buy me more brews and I’ll send my little bottles of happiness to your friends and family – $12 will get you 3 bottles, $20 will get you 5 and you can even send me a special note to include with your bottles 🙂
If you are feeling generous and want to buy into my bottle idea, then please pop over to my Buy me a Coffee page, buy me a Coffee/Brew and drop me an email with your details.
Thank you!! ♥
So in reality I’m a crap blogger. I promise and never deliver. I might change this whole setup.
Today we are fighting yet again.
When there’s that one meme that you can relate to more than any others….
So this is it, the very last time I say I’ll start a ‘New Me’ tomorrow. Tomorrow IS the New Me!
No longer will I be chauffeured to and from work. I have bought my weekly bus pass, my Fitbit Versa will be fully charged, primed and ready for the week ahead. I have made plans for one of my girlfriend’s to attend our local ParkRun this coming Saturday (with our kids in tow) and even though we may only be able to walk it, we are still doing something, right?
I’m spending today working on a food menu for the week and plan to do my Ocado shop shortly. I’m also planning on hitting bed by 10.30pm – Lights out and waking up at 6am for a 30min workout and breakfast with a view of hitting the gym 5 times a week.
I’m determined to do this!
I’m scared right now to step on our Fitbit Aria scales, the dimpled legs and bottom I see when I look in the mirror make me almost sick to my stomach. It’s not cool. I honestly can’t remember the last time I looked in the mirror and felt happy with myself. My mental headspace is not a good place right now and I need to be proactive and do something about it.
I’ve been awake about 45mins and I’ve done the usual, make a brew and watch Sunday Brunch. I’m toying with the idea of either heading to the gym to walk on the treadmill, or head to the beach for a power walk. My relationship with C at the moment is a little strained and I know he’ll be disappointed that I’m choosing to go without him, but I think I need the time to myself. To powerwalk and think about the changes I need to make for myself and in turn our relationship.
So here we are again, a New Year, 2018 and what does it have in store for me?
I really need to kick myself out of this doom and gloom mood.
Is anyone else out there struggling too?