A new day, a new attempt.

I’m scared right now to step on our Fitbit Aria scales, the dimpled legs and bottom I see when I look in the mirror make me almost sick to my stomach. It’s not cool. I honestly can’t remember the last time I looked in the mirror and felt happy with myself. My mental headspace is not a good place right now and I need to be proactive and do something about it.

I’ve been awake about 45mins and I’ve done the usual, make a brew and watch Sunday Brunch. I’m toying with the idea of either heading to the gym to walk on the treadmill, or head to the beach for a power walk. My relationship with C at the moment is a little strained and I know he’ll be disappointed that I’m choosing to go without him, but I think I need the time to myself. To powerwalk and think about the changes I need to make for myself and in turn our relationship.

E x

Sleep is for the weak…

Urgh – I feel god awful today. Achey, nausea, headache, cold, tired and just in general bleurgh. I woke up for work, started getting ready and had to retreat to bed. Now I’m on the sofa with a blanket, my pillow and a cat because lying down makes me feel worse.

Today is going to be a long day!

Plan as you mean to go on

I’m sat here planning tomorrow’s breakfast, lunch and dinner, but with our Ocado shop not arriving until tomorrow evening, I’m a bit limited to what I can do – I’d nip to the Supermarket but I’m not feeling 100%, so opted to stay indoors, warm and just take it easy.

So far my meal plan looks like this:

Breakfast – Two weetabix, milk and a glass of fresh orange juice.

Lunch – Roasted salmon, tomatoes and cous cous.

Dinner – Omelette with carrot fries.

I’m aiming to get up at 5.30am tomorrow and to squeeze in a 20 min cardio session, that is of course if I can get my arse out of bed!

Anniversary Weekend

We are back from what should have been a magical weekend celebrating our first anniversary back where we stayed for our first night away in North Yorkshire.

The best bits were Fountains Abbey, Studley Royal Water Park in Ripon and a trip to York en route to real life.

Shame the best bits had to end.