Exhausted

I’ve been off work for the past two days with a migraine, I’m feeling absolutely wiped out by it so I will probably hold off from returning tomorrow and just take the long weekend to fully recover.

C got home about 7pm, which is late for him. We’re still not talking, or should I say I’m not going out of my way to start a conversation so we just sit in silence.

I just don’t have the energy right now. I’m heading back to bed with my Audiobook.

Buy me a Brew

In my life I’ve never once asked for help.  My dysfunctional, non-existing family are the reason I am the person I am today.  A recluse.  I don’t have friends, only acquaintances and to people on the outside I must come across like I have my shit together, but in reality I don’t.  I need help.  I need to cut strings, move on, grow up and make some massive life changes.  I need to be positive.  I need to spread happiness.

With that in mind, I’m going to be really cheeky and ask you lot – my followers, my virtual friends for a little bit of help by buying me a virtual brew (or coffee) $4 is all I ask.  I plan to use my brew fund to make some positive changes to my life, starting today.

So what’s in it for you, I hear you ask….

Buy me one brew ($4) and I will send you a little bit of happiness in a bottle.
Buy me more brews and I’ll send my little bottles of happiness to your friends and family – $12 will get you 3 bottles, $20 will get you 5 and you can even send me a special note to include with your bottles 🙂

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If you are feeling generous and want to buy into my bottle idea, then please pop over to my Buy me a Coffee page, buy me a Coffee/Brew and drop me an email with your details.

Thank you!! ♥

 

Sometimes

Turn off the light, she said
I’m going to bed
I don’t wanna talk right now
I’m turning my head
If we could go back to where we first started
I would go right now
Remember the days before this all started
It’s got me thinking how

Sick

A day talking constantly has left me with a very sore and dry throat. I don’t feel marvellous so I’m in bed with my hot water bottle, a brew and an audio book.

If you’ve not read it, I definitely recommend it!

Good Samaritans

The Child Free Weekend

This was the weekend of romance, of making plans, of being together. This was the weekend our daughter went away with school and we got some quality time as a couple.

Oh how wrong was I.

We’ve not left the house since Thursday night. We’ve watched TV and hardly spoken.

Why is it that if I don’t make arrangements to do something or book to go away somewhere we don’t do anything? Is it wrong of me to expect him to organise something every once in a while?

It’s his birthday next month and I’m seriously considering selling the Bears Den tickets I’ve bought him as a surprise.

Forget

You know when you forget you’re angry and carry on like nothing happened? Well I did that today and even though we’re talking, I still want him to apologise for his behaviour.

On another note I’ve got crippling pain in my lower back/side area so I’ve come to bed with my hot water bottle to try and ease it.

Never rains but it pours.

You could cut the atmosphere with a knife. We’re not talking, just passing each other like ships on water. I think I’ve had enough. I think it’s easier to just be alone.

I’ve passed two hours just sitting in the tub.

Crap

So in reality I’m a crap blogger. I promise and never deliver. I might change this whole setup.

Today we are fighting yet again.

I’m tired.

Monday, new start!

So this is it, the very last time I say I’ll start a ‘New Me’ tomorrow. Tomorrow IS the New Me!

No longer will I be chauffeured to and from work. I have bought my weekly bus pass, my Fitbit Versa will be fully charged, primed and ready for the week ahead. I have made plans for one of my girlfriend’s to attend our local ParkRun this coming Saturday (with our kids in tow) and even though we may only be able to walk it, we are still doing something, right?

I’m spending today working on a food menu for the week and plan to do my Ocado shop shortly. I’m also planning on hitting bed by 10.30pm – Lights out and waking up at 6am for a 30min workout and breakfast with a view of hitting the gym 5 times a week.

I’m determined to do this!