You know that feeling you get in the pit of your stomach? That Monday feeling? Well it’s returned. I’m currently lying in bed after having a few days off really hating the idea of heading into the office tomorrow.
On a positive, I’ve been doing some research into my business idea this weekend and even started to put a little bit of money away to buy tools. I’ve invested a little bit of my salary this month and with the help of people in Facebook groups, online videos and research I’ve put together a wish list of the basics I need to kick-start my business project. It might take me a few months to get everything from the list (it is quite extensive) but I should be able to start practising in a few weeks. All baby steps to do something I love, rather than continue to be treated like shit.
I shall keep you updated on progress and give you a sneak peek into my purchases when they arrive.
For now though I must try and remain as positive as I can.
I returned to work today to the same old crap. There’s a lot of restructuring going on at the minute and lots of redundancies. Thankfully I’m not one of them, but our new site manager wants to give me an opportunity (and hopeful payrise!) but he’s asked me what I want to do? Sadly I don’t think being a lady of leisure is what he means, but really, how do you answer that? Seriously?
I went for a new lead position a few months back and got turned down due to “lack of experience” and I know he wants me to naturally slip into that role, but I’m not sure that role is what I want anymore. I don’t really know what I want. It’s not like I’ve been given a load of Job Specs and been told to pick the one I like the sound of, I’ve literally been given free reign within my capability…. But what is that exactly?
Anyway, the drive home from the office with C wasn’t pleasant. As much as I love him dearly he just doesn’t get my workplace or environment and instead of giving advice, he tells me what I should do, like he could do it better? I shouted that at him as I marched out of the kitchen and disappeared up to the bathroom for a cry.
Didn’t have dinner. Felt like I had a migraine coming on, so took two ibuprofen and have been in bed since 8pm.
Tuesday tomorrow. Oh joy.
In my life I’ve never once asked for help. My dysfunctional, non-existing family are the reason I am the person I am today. A recluse. I don’t have friends, only acquaintances and to people on the outside I must come across like I have my shit together, but in reality I don’t. I need help. I need to cut strings, move on, grow up and make some massive life changes. I need to be positive. I need to spread happiness.
With that in mind, I’m going to be really cheeky and ask you lot – my followers, my virtual friends for a little bit of help by buying me a virtual brew (or coffee) $4 is all I ask. I plan to use my brew fund to make some positive changes to my life, starting today.
So what’s in it for you, I hear you ask….
Buy me one brew ($4) and I will send you a little bit of happiness in a bottle.
Buy me more brews and I’ll send my little bottles of happiness to your friends and family – $12 will get you 3 bottles, $20 will get you 5 and you can even send me a special note to include with your bottles 🙂
If you are feeling generous and want to buy into my bottle idea, then please pop over to my Buy me a Coffee page, buy me a Coffee/Brew and drop me an email with your details.
Thank you!! ♥