Month: February 2019

Bus

My Fitbit stats show that I had an awful night’s sleep, I’ve struggled to stay awake all day.

C had a meeting a good 4 hour drive away this morning, so I opted to take the bus. Apart from the smelly guy sat opposite me, it was really enjoyable. Ears plugged into Issac Gracie and the morning sun kissing my face. It was a short walk from the bus stop to my office, which meant I was able to hit my Fitbit step goal.

Work was same old, I kept my head down for most of it and did what I could. Finished on time and was greeted by C waiting for me in the carpark.

Drove home, had dinner and crawled into bed. I think I’ll be asleep in 5… 4…. 3….. Zzzzz

Work

I returned to work today to the same old crap. There’s a lot of restructuring going on at the minute and lots of redundancies. Thankfully I’m not one of them, but our new site manager wants to give me an opportunity (and hopeful payrise!) but he’s asked me what I want to do? Sadly I don’t think being a lady of leisure is what he means, but really, how do you answer that? Seriously?

I went for a new lead position a few months back and got turned down due to “lack of experience” and I know he wants me to naturally slip into that role, but I’m not sure that role is what I want anymore. I don’t really know what I want. It’s not like I’ve been given a load of Job Specs and been told to pick the one I like the sound of, I’ve literally been given free reign within my capability…. But what is that exactly?

Anyway, the drive home from the office with C wasn’t pleasant. As much as I love him dearly he just doesn’t get my workplace or environment and instead of giving advice, he tells me what I should do, like he could do it better? I shouted that at him as I marched out of the kitchen and disappeared up to the bathroom for a cry.

Didn’t have dinner. Felt like I had a migraine coming on, so took two ibuprofen and have been in bed since 8pm.

Tuesday tomorrow. Oh joy.

Hair

I know what you’re thinking, not another drawing post right? But honestly it’s the most therapeutic and satisfying thing I’ve done in a real long time!

Today we slept in until about 10am. Suffering with a sore back, I got up made a brew and crawled back into bed whilst C snoozed. We spent the next two hours catching up on social media, videos and drawing tutorials. We eventually surfaced from bed around midday and headed straight to the kitchen for bacon and egg on toast and fresh brews. Yum!

After brunch, I put some laundry on, had a blistering hot shower, changed into fresh lounge wear and got comfy with my new stylus and tablet. Thought I’d try my hand at hair, which started off with a different, more realistic style, but due to me getting carried away (picasso-eat-your-heart-out) it ended up looking more Anime. Still I’m rather pleased with the end result.

Back to work tomorrow after being ill last week. Not looking forward to it.

Still, there’s a few more hours of Sunday left to enjoy and we’ve got a Chinese takeaway enroute!

She Draws

Yesterday I decided to treat myself to a new toy and it was delivered today – The joys of Amazon Prime!

I thought about the times when C would prefer to play a game, and I’m sat with nothing to do so I bought myself a Ciscle Disc Stylus to do a bit of drawing! I’ve got it working with Sketchbook for Android and I have to say I’m really impressed so far. Only costing £9.99 for two, they came in a lovely white presentation box, complete with velvet bag and 6 extra disc nibs. The stylus also have a nib each fitted (8 in total), so great value for money. I opted for the black and gold versions, but they had many more colours available.

Eager to test them out I had to factory reset my android tablet, as months of game hoarding were slowing it down somewhat. Once reset I installed all the apps I needed and got to work! A few hours later many attempts later, I am ending the night with a complete drawing.

Meet my digital self, Tilly!

Sleep

I slept in until about 10am, must have needed it.

My Fitbit stats show that I was restless around the time I normally get up for work. I also had horrid dreams that I had been fired for being ill. I could have quite easily drifted back to sleep at 10am, but the risk of picking the dream back up again really put me off.

The rest of the day consisted of lounging around in pyjamas and watching TV.

I showered around 5.30pm and C was home for about 6pm. He ordered takeaway for himself and our daughter, I refused.

C went to bed at 10.30pm and I’m still up. We’re still not talking.

I feel like watching some serial killer programmes, but as I’m never normally one that controls the remote I’m not sure what channels I should hit…. Off to look for a guide on how to use the Sky remote 😂

Exhausted

I’ve been off work for the past two days with a migraine, I’m feeling absolutely wiped out by it so I will probably hold off from returning tomorrow and just take the long weekend to fully recover.

C got home about 7pm, which is late for him. We’re still not talking, or should I say I’m not going out of my way to start a conversation so we just sit in silence.

I just don’t have the energy right now. I’m heading back to bed with my Audiobook.

Buy me a Brew

In my life I’ve never once asked for help.  My dysfunctional, non-existing family are the reason I am the person I am today.  A recluse.  I don’t have friends, only acquaintances and to people on the outside I must come across like I have my shit together, but in reality I don’t.  I need help.  I need to cut strings, move on, grow up and make some massive life changes.  I need to be positive.  I need to spread happiness.

With that in mind, I’m going to be really cheeky and ask you lot – my followers, my virtual friends for a little bit of help by buying me a virtual brew (or coffee) $4 is all I ask.  I plan to use my brew fund to make some positive changes to my life, starting today.

So what’s in it for you, I hear you ask….

Buy me one brew ($4) and I will send you a little bit of happiness in a bottle.
Buy me more brews and I’ll send my little bottles of happiness to your friends and family – $12 will get you 3 bottles, $20 will get you 5 and you can even send me a special note to include with your bottles 🙂

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If you are feeling generous and want to buy into my bottle idea, then please pop over to my Buy me a Coffee page, buy me a Coffee/Brew and drop me an email with your details.

Thank you!! ♥

 

Sometimes

Turn off the light, she said
I’m going to bed
I don’t wanna talk right now
I’m turning my head
If we could go back to where we first started
I would go right now
Remember the days before this all started
It’s got me thinking how

Sick

A day talking constantly has left me with a very sore and dry throat. I don’t feel marvellous so I’m in bed with my hot water bottle, a brew and an audio book.

If you’ve not read it, I definitely recommend it!

Good Samaritans

The Child Free Weekend

This was the weekend of romance, of making plans, of being together. This was the weekend our daughter went away with school and we got some quality time as a couple.

Oh how wrong was I.

We’ve not left the house since Thursday night. We’ve watched TV and hardly spoken.

Why is it that if I don’t make arrangements to do something or book to go away somewhere we don’t do anything? Is it wrong of me to expect him to organise something every once in a while?

It’s his birthday next month and I’m seriously considering selling the Bears Den tickets I’ve bought him as a surprise.