Monday Blues

I’ve attempted to write this post three times, got so far and then deleted it. I’m in one of those moods.

Another weekend of doing nothing and going nowhere has been and almost gone.

Wish I could wake up tomorrow morning, jump in the car, skip work and take myself away.

Motivation

I’m glad to see the back of this week. Things are going on in work that I’m not 100% happy with. People making decisions about my future without reaching out to me first. The people around me that I thought were loyal turn out to be anything but that and I just don’t think I can work in that kind of environment anymore.

On a positive, it’s the weekend. I was hoping to book a cottage and get away, last minute, but that hasn’t gone to plan. Our daughter didn’t get home from school until 5pm and C didn’t get home until 7pm, so by the time people pack and we get on the road it would be midnight before we arrive and that’s just not worth it. Might try and book something for next weekend.

Had an email this morning that our gym is going to be open 24/7, which is brilliant news! I said that likes it’s a place I frequent often when in fact I’ve held my membership for 2 years and haven’t been in over a year now. Yep, I’m one of those people.

If you’re a regular gym-goer, what times do you normally hit the gym floor? How do you keep yourself motivated? I’ve been thinking of booking a Personal Trainer for a few sessions, but I always feel quite intimidated by them.

Bus

My Fitbit stats show that I had an awful night’s sleep, I’ve struggled to stay awake all day.

C had a meeting a good 4 hour drive away this morning, so I opted to take the bus. Apart from the smelly guy sat opposite me, it was really enjoyable. Ears plugged into Issac Gracie and the morning sun kissing my face. It was a short walk from the bus stop to my office, which meant I was able to hit my Fitbit step goal.

Work was same old, I kept my head down for most of it and did what I could. Finished on time and was greeted by C waiting for me in the carpark.

Drove home, had dinner and crawled into bed. I think I’ll be asleep in 5… 4…. 3….. Zzzzz

Work

I returned to work today to the same old crap. There’s a lot of restructuring going on at the minute and lots of redundancies. Thankfully I’m not one of them, but our new site manager wants to give me an opportunity (and hopeful payrise!) but he’s asked me what I want to do? Sadly I don’t think being a lady of leisure is what he means, but really, how do you answer that? Seriously?

I went for a new lead position a few months back and got turned down due to “lack of experience” and I know he wants me to naturally slip into that role, but I’m not sure that role is what I want anymore. I don’t really know what I want. It’s not like I’ve been given a load of Job Specs and been told to pick the one I like the sound of, I’ve literally been given free reign within my capability…. But what is that exactly?

Anyway, the drive home from the office with C wasn’t pleasant. As much as I love him dearly he just doesn’t get my workplace or environment and instead of giving advice, he tells me what I should do, like he could do it better? I shouted that at him as I marched out of the kitchen and disappeared up to the bathroom for a cry.

Didn’t have dinner. Felt like I had a migraine coming on, so took two ibuprofen and have been in bed since 8pm.

Tuesday tomorrow. Oh joy.

Hair

I know what you’re thinking, not another drawing post right? But honestly it’s the most therapeutic and satisfying thing I’ve done in a real long time!

Today we slept in until about 10am. Suffering with a sore back, I got up made a brew and crawled back into bed whilst C snoozed. We spent the next two hours catching up on social media, videos and drawing tutorials. We eventually surfaced from bed around midday and headed straight to the kitchen for bacon and egg on toast and fresh brews. Yum!

After brunch, I put some laundry on, had a blistering hot shower, changed into fresh lounge wear and got comfy with my new stylus and tablet. Thought I’d try my hand at hair, which started off with a different, more realistic style, but due to me getting carried away (picasso-eat-your-heart-out) it ended up looking more Anime. Still I’m rather pleased with the end result.

Back to work tomorrow after being ill last week. Not looking forward to it.

Still, there’s a few more hours of Sunday left to enjoy and we’ve got a Chinese takeaway enroute!

She Draws

Yesterday I decided to treat myself to a new toy and it was delivered today – The joys of Amazon Prime!

I thought about the times when C would prefer to play a game, and I’m sat with nothing to do so I bought myself a Ciscle Disc Stylus to do a bit of drawing! I’ve got it working with Sketchbook for Android and I have to say I’m really impressed so far. Only costing £9.99 for two, they came in a lovely white presentation box, complete with velvet bag and 6 extra disc nibs. The stylus also have a nib each fitted (8 in total), so great value for money. I opted for the black and gold versions, but they had many more colours available.

Eager to test them out I had to factory reset my android tablet, as months of game hoarding were slowing it down somewhat. Once reset I installed all the apps I needed and got to work! A few hours later many attempts later, I am ending the night with a complete drawing.

Meet my digital self, Tilly!

Sleep

I slept in until about 10am, must have needed it.

My Fitbit stats show that I was restless around the time I normally get up for work. I also had horrid dreams that I had been fired for being ill. I could have quite easily drifted back to sleep at 10am, but the risk of picking the dream back up again really put me off.

The rest of the day consisted of lounging around in pyjamas and watching TV.

I showered around 5.30pm and C was home for about 6pm. He ordered takeaway for himself and our daughter, I refused.

C went to bed at 10.30pm and I’m still up. We’re still not talking.

I feel like watching some serial killer programmes, but as I’m never normally one that controls the remote I’m not sure what channels I should hit…. Off to look for a guide on how to use the Sky remote 😂

Exhausted

I’ve been off work for the past two days with a migraine, I’m feeling absolutely wiped out by it so I will probably hold off from returning tomorrow and just take the long weekend to fully recover.

C got home about 7pm, which is late for him. We’re still not talking, or should I say I’m not going out of my way to start a conversation so we just sit in silence.

I just don’t have the energy right now. I’m heading back to bed with my Audiobook.